Ding Ding.. Round 2

I visited the RE on Thursday for an Ultrasound since my period arrived. While I ovulated with Clomid, my post-ovulation blood work showed my hormone levels were less than ideal. Instead of doing another round of Clomid, he prescribed Femara to hopefully produce stronger, better eggs.

::Fingers crossed for a left-side egg!::

Progress

Today I had an ultrasound at the RE to check on my ovaries.

The good news: I have a nice, big follicle, which means the Clomid worked!
The bad news: It's on the side without a fallopian tube.. No chance of a pregnancy this month.

I'm glad the Clomid is doing it's job, so hopefully next cycle I can grow an egg on my working side!

I will go back to the RE on April 18th to get a progesterone blood test to confirm that I did ovulate, and then an ultrasound to check if I have both kidneys. It's not related to fertility, but as my doc said, it's good to know if I have a backup incase I ever decide to donate one! Some people with a Uni Ute do not have both kidneys, either.

Now I would love my cycle to hurry up and end so I can start over!

THE Question

It is inevitable that people will continually ask when a couple plans on having children during their 'fertile' years, but this was the first time THE question was asked since we found out about my ute.

While celebrating a friend's birthday Monday night the question came up and it felt like a brick hit me in the face. Luckily my husband fielded the question and swiftly changed the subject while I sat there silent and breathless. He knew I was feeling uncomfortable and sad, and he gave my hand a good squeeze to let me know it would be ok.

When we returned home we had a short chat about THE question and how it had made us feel. I told him that I had felt sad, but his response uplifted me: We still have lots of options. There's no reason to be sad yet. 


He's right. This is not hopeless. This is not impossible. This does not have to be sad.

I saw a preview for the movie Soul Surfer.. In it, the young girl who plays Bethany Hamilton says, "I'm not asking for easy, I'm asking for possible."

Me too.

Smile, though your heart is aching...

I've been in a definite funk since Wednesday, the day I found out about my halfsie. My mind keeps wandering to that little bugger, and it makes me sad. Seeing babies is making that tiny ute throb with longing, and I know jealousy is a horrible color on me. I am trying hard not to be sad and stay positive.

Here's my positive thought for the day:

I took my last Clomid pill today. Maybe it will work, maybe it won't. But it's done. I'm looking forward to seeing my RE on Friday to take a look in my ovaries. Fingers crossed that there are some nicely sized follicles on the business side!

Laughter is the best medicine.

Today the staff threw a surprise retirement party for my dear friend. She was completely shocked and surprised. We all cried happy tears when she walked in and saw her daughter (who flew in from Chicago). The evening continued with more laughs than I could possibly count... My cheeks are still sore from smiling. I was snorting like mad, and everyone had a wonderful time. And for two hours I never once thought about my halfsie uterus.

Now only if clomid was such a great medicine.. I hope it does its job, because I'm encountering most of the special side effects already.

If I need a quick shot of laughter in the future I'll be able to think back to this party and recall at least a dozen reasons to forget for a while and giggle.